People favour small talk, over big, deep talk.

Holding hands with someone who's not your boyfriend or girlfriend is considered weird nowadays, lol. Two examples (that I'm proud of)

1. Holding hands with Summa

2. Wrapping my arm around with Becka and walking around when her when she was wearing a Cape.

3. Aaaand I had a huge crush on Hannah for most of my life until now, which I think its actually adorable :)

And.... uhh... it would be amazing to have a girlfriend.

Okay, so the root of the matter. When people make a joke or ask a question like "So, how are you?" You're expected to answer in an expected way or react by laughing EVEN IF you don't find the joke funny.

1. Luckily my friend Summa, John and others don't actually do this, and I think Seth is naturally funny too who doesn't even try.

2. "Your mom" jokes are not funny. Pfft. It's starting to get dry now. However, I have just started liking "I forgo💀" and "I remember😀"

3. People react weird when they look at you after making a joke and you don't smile or laugh.

4. And when you don't smile you're automatically seen as "sad". You can still be happy and not smile. That means you're content.

5. Not to mention BLOODY SCHOOL where teachers HAVE to overreact if you slightly do something different.

This is why online chatting can actually be relaxing and easier in comparison, if you're not that fond of small talk and chat with people who don't really wanna have deep convos. You can just have it online. But then again... You could give it a shot in real life first, even if you fail! That's one of my goals. 💖

Experience: even when I was 11, I used to find typing easier and more fun. I loved using emojis and I still do, which means that I still use the internet for relaxation and fun and education in my own way. In a way that suits me.

In a way that I like writing down and remembering information. It's really useful for you. It's also great for drawing too.

I might be trying to hard to be a psychologist for people, but its just because I understand the thought processes and loopholes they go through 😂

It's not that I over think.

Maybe I'm just hyper aware. 😀

I've also become more chill lately, like I dont force myself to text a whole bunch, and actually enjoy a different activity instead, like drawing, reading, watching or playing when I'm on my own. They're so relaxing and fun.

I text less and use emojis less which is nice 😊

I just kinda notice as I listen to other people that they often follow the SAME social conventions :/ so it's actually refreshing to see people online who talk about games n characters they like n such. To me, that's actually a way more relaxing and fun conversation, especially showing someone something you love and thoroughly enjoying it with them.

Unfortunately, which this age "stigma" we have, two older generations of mine just generally can't understand the modern stuff we have now, or how we have fun with these silly jokes, ridiculous childish videos and random games. They think it's a waste of time.

Sure, it may be a result of being a shut in, but I think it's better of a positive result than a bad one, as long as you find something you're passionate about :)👍🏻

Pic Credit: AshbieMoon on Twitter :)